Dearest Gus, Why won’t you stop crying? All day. All night. You’re clean. You’ve been fed. You are driving me crazy. I don’t like babies. Please don’t misunderstand, I love you, my beautiful baby boy, but I don’t like you right now. It’s not personal. I don’t like any babies at your age. If we could fast-forward a few months and just skip this newborn, … Continue reading I don’t like babies.
Ellie was standing on the curb when I got to her school to pick her up yesterday afternoon. I had to stop the car in the middle of the drive when I saw her. She was standing with the help of her little red walker, her hands gripping the handles. She was wearing her leg braces and her New Balance running shoes. Her hair was … Continue reading Heart-Swelling Pride
I wrote this back in September and have debated with myself about showing it to others. I sent it to a few places and it was published, but I didn’t share it on my blog because it was so heavily edited that I felt like the editor missed the point of what I was trying to say. I realize that depression while pregnant and postpartum … Continue reading Enough is Enough
August Benjamin joined our family on the day after Christmas. The holidays were a blur. The last month has been a blur. What did I even do five minutes ago? The Honaker house is a disaster these days. There is always a pile of laundry on the couch. The dishwasher always needs to be unloaded. Toys are on the floor in every room. There are … Continue reading Defining Chaos
We told Jack that his little sister has Down syndrome. “Hey Jack, do you know what Down syndrome is?” my husband asked my son on Sunday morning during breakfast. “Uh huh,” said 3-year-old Jack. This is his standard answer for every question that starts with “Did you know…” “Down syndrome is a genetic defect that some people are born with. It just means that people … Continue reading Telling Jack
Ellie had a cardiology follow up appointment last week and the news wasn’t great. Through her echo-cardiogram, the doctor found she has developed a new condition that creates a force of blood flow in left side of her heart that he likened to putting your thumb over a garden hose. It is not something that could have been prevented, it just happens sometimes – 10% … Continue reading Fishing out of the same boat
At Kroger, when we go out to eat in a restaurant, in the waiting room at doctor appointments, while playing at the park, walking through parking lots, even at the Arby’s in Laurel, Mississippi, nearly everywhere we go, Ellie draws attention. “I have a special friend like her.” “She is just so cute. They are always so happy.” “Look at that angel. You know, she … Continue reading Celebrity Status