We planned Ellie’s funeral before she was born. We met with Arkansas Regional Organ Recovery Agency (ARORA) about our options. They looked at test results and talked with doctors to determine which organs and parts could be used by someone else’s baby. She was to be cremated. There would be no ceremony. We would figure out a way to honor her later. It all … Continue reading Heart Month
I registered Jack for Pre-K today. Well, I added him to the list of other kids who want to attend public school Pre-K in August. While there is no guarantee that he will get in, we should hear soon whether or not he is accepted to one of our schools of choice. I missed the mid-January deadline for registration. I have a lot of excuses … Continue reading Jack is ready for school, but I am not.
Dearest Gus, Why won’t you stop crying? All day. All night. You’re clean. You’ve been fed. You are driving me crazy. I don’t like babies. Please don’t misunderstand, I love you, my beautiful baby boy, but I don’t like you right now. It’s not personal. I don’t like any babies at your age. If we could fast-forward a few months and just skip this newborn, … Continue reading I don’t like babies.
Ellie was standing on the curb when I got to her school to pick her up yesterday afternoon. I had to stop the car in the middle of the drive when I saw her. She was standing with the help of her little red walker, her hands gripping the handles. She was wearing her leg braces and her New Balance running shoes. Her hair was … Continue reading Heart-Swelling Pride